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Haaa…so tired…today sucked. Allot. B ( guy that i’m in love with) told a friend of mine that he doesn’t feel anything for me..he says he’s dead inside..:( I hate him, if it weren’t for him these two years wouldn’t of have been the most depressing and fucked up years of my life. Not like life was any better when i was younger..bitches didn’t like me, all my friends were guys and as soon as my best friend(prettiest girl in school) stopped talking to me, which totally fucked up EVERYTHING, guys stopped liking me. But the worst part about B is that he lift me up, higher and higher, til i finally found happiness, and then just let me fall so hard i broke my fucking neck…now it’s always weird when i see him. He knows he killed me and i know he has been killed by someone else. Life’s just really messed up, u know.. I just hope that things get better, although hope is slowly dying and i’m getting back to cutting..i wonder how long it’ll take me before i kill myself…it’s not like anyone’ll care, the only person i WANT to care, will probably be glad, so, why do i still fucking breathe if not for him?. Sometimes i just wish i was never born…
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thanks dude i’ll try my best :)
I understand, and in saying that I realize there is nothing I can say to make you feel better. but hopefully it helps to know that you are not alone. boys are awful, women are worse! hang in there kiddo!
i wonder if i’ll EVER get my act together…insanity is getting closer and closer..
hi, my life is pritty shit for other reasons than you, im older got 2 kids and life is hard, im trying to sort it out now, but it’s taken me this long to get my act together..