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Ahh..i’m back..haven’t written in a while cuz i’ve been doing good lately. Till today that is, ugh god i miss him…why the fuck would god let me fall so madly and deeply in love with someone just to let him carve my heart out like that. That’s how ii feel…like he carved it out, fed on my blood and then, when there was no use for it anymore or it jjust didn’t satisfy him enough, he just threw it away… God i hate this life.. I hate how people want me to smile, i hate how they sometimes do and that’s when i feel weak…can’t stand my ground. can’t even be Me. WHO The fuck am I anyway?? I have no fucking idea anymore…i used to be sow happy n lifefull and now i’m just some weird little emo girl that has black circels under her eyes, is always listening to ear-bleedingly-loud music and just lying down…not caring about the rest of the world…why should i huh? It doesn’t care about me…the only person i’ve ever wanted to care about me SO BADLY never talks to me. fuck fuck fuck i think i’m losing it…i can’t go a day without him constantly on my mind, without being concerned if he’s cloce cuz that would be weird, thinking ‘what should i do, what will make HIM happy?’ goddammit why did i fall inlove…
I ALREADY have a really weak soul, i’m never sure of anything, i never want people to take pictures of me cuz i don’t want anyone to have my pic…i don’t like my face eventhough people are always telling me i’m pretty i just don’t believe anyone anymore…i can’t…i don’t wanna be close to anyone anymore…i just wanna leave u know..leave this world…and be set free from this curse :)….