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Cut again today…i think something is wrong cuz..i’m not feeling it..i swear i’m not feeling any pain when i cut.. I wish i could cut a vein by mistake and just bleed it out and just die right here on my bed.. UGH fuck i hate this so much PLEAZ PLEAZ PLEAZ care about me baby! If only he gave me a sign, that he doesn’t want me to die I’d be okay. Goddammit i’m not okay why the fuck am i bleeding and not in pain..just the normal screaming pain i always have for when i think about u and the fact u don’t care about me. I hear it loud..in my brains..“u don’t deserve to live..ur ugly ur dumb u don’t deserve him u should just go jump off a bridge…and put a bag over ur head so no one has to see ur ugly face in the water..die…now” Fuck fuck fuck fuck i am so sick of being like this!! Can’t i just get someone to take the pain away and make me stop thinking about suicide…i wish i could get some anti-depressants…i’m bleeding on the inside here…
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@kalin brooke
thanks :) things are starting to look up btw so that’s good ;)
I don’t know you and i know your better then this! (: I have “cut” before and felt the same way you did. STOP NOW. If it is a guy you are talking about doesn’t like you or doesn’t care. FORGET HIM. i know easier said then done right? not if you don’t make it that way. You just have to start looking on the bright side of life. you may not know how serious this is.. but it is VERY serious!! Don’t ever think it is just to get your mind off things and ignore the world… DON’T! you can’t keep running. i don’t know you and i don’t know what you are truely going through. But i do know suicide is never the answer. Go to the drug store and talk to the owner and have a heart to heart convo with the owner and maybe they will give you something that would help. But DON’T do suicide. Think about others too.! Think about your friends and family and how hurt they would be to lose you. This is Not all about you.. Think about God. He made you! Don’t destroy his wonderful creation! (: LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF EVERYTHING FROM NOW ON! CLOSE YOUR EYES AND PRAY! (:
im here for you! (: