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since i was 11, my perants broke up. this didnt go down good with my mum and every time i would wont to see my dad she wouldnt be happy. i can remeber when i was 12 i spent my birthday crying because my mum came home and shouted at me because my dad came round because i wonted to show him my birthday present. since then i always helpe my mum out doing everything i could for her, but what did she do? just drink every night. throw my childhood i stayed in my bedrrom because i new if i went down stairs my mum would shout at me because of her and my dad splitting up. when i was 15 i had a girlfriend for 2 and half years. it wasnt the best of relationships but i thought i loved her. now we are split up and i feel dead in side i have no on to speak to because she was the one who i spoke to if i had a problem and she always made me feel better. Now i miss her more than ever and i have tryed ringing her once and she didnt anwser so i have left it since but i just cant seem to get her out of my mind. iv tryed meeting some one else and that didnt work. i tryed going out at night and that didnt work it felt like all these things just made it worse. now i have moved away from my home leaveing everything and everyone. i feel like im by my self now and i dont wont to waste my life i wont to do something with it, i wont to look back on this time and say yes im glad i done that but right now i just feel like whats the point ? i cant seem to talk to eny one about my problems becasue they just think they no how it feels and try to tell me to live a life like theres i dont wont that. i wont to live a life that is going to make me happy. i just need help to ake my good feelings come back and to feel good about my self again and not to worry every night and nearly cry. i wont to be smiling every second of every day. i just cant see the light at the end of the tunel :-(.
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My situation is very similar to yours (Only my dad is the drunk) My parents split when i was 11. It affected me badly and has knocked my self confidence ever since. But i realised that they really were a bad couple and are better off divorced. Firstly, you need to tell them that its their problem that they cant get along and not yours. Secondly, I’ve found working towards a goal helps. You said you want to do something with your life, so find something to work towards. Don’t go out looking for love or anything…usually it finds you. Find a target and work for it…it could open you up to a whole new world.
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