shes leaving. soon. i miss her. already. i want to be with her, be near her, but thats gonna be impossible soon as she moves to that place so far away. i need to get over her.
people say, let go of the things that you cannot have, because if it belongs to you, it will return. if it doesnt, it was...
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I tried. tired to push my feelings deep down below and treat her like how a friend should. only how a friend would. but ive failed miserably. i think about her, dream about her, shes never away from my thoughts for more than three seconds. god. but thinking about her is probably the only thing i ...
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today i found a new word. pansexuality. yeah. i think that pretty much sums up who i am.
and i also fully convinced myself that i am bi. im not gay for two reasons.
1. i happen to have too high a standard in men, which accounts for me not being attracted to any. and those that meet my standards a...
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i get jealous so goddamn easily. i KNOW shes entitled to be friendly with everybody else and that shes not mine.
but when i see her being so close with another person i get so effing jealous?
obsessive much?
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i know now that the girl i was attracted to recently after my obsession was just that: an attraction. why? cuz she got herself into a situation where i would worry about her wellbeing. difference being if the person was the girl i was obsessed with rather than the one i was attracted to, id be wo...
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im reminded time and time again that this is wrong. i have struggled and barely succeeded to convince myself that i am bi. but as it turns out, ive been attracted (strongly) to four girls in my lifetime and i have yet to find a single guy that make me feel as strongly.
is this some kind of sign, ...
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i saw her for the first time in two weeks today. (yay me!) at first i was abit depressed by her coldness she was tired after the long trip. i understand.
and the first thing she said to me was if she could get out of the gathering we had planned, so that brought me further down but i said yeah, ...
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I feel envious towards those who have known her longer. but then again, being who i was before, and being who she is, if we WERE in the same school wed belong to different cliques anyway. How we got so close as friends now is completely out of my comprehension but i thank god for it. for the chan...
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