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u know wat i think that my life is never gonna change that the wall i set up around my heart will never come down like it did so many times before like the way i keep on letting everyone walk all over me like im nothing wat will happen to me when i cant take it anymore?why does this happen to me? why can t io jus live a normal life with normal people? heres wat happened today ok so for the first time in since like forever me and my bro finally get along and it all goes well for like at least a week then everything falls apart.in truth he used to treat me like shit and hated me never wanted me around and always told me that i was fat when i wasnt cuz he was the fat one he weighed more and l weighed less about 100 pounds to his 300 and something pounds but thats not the point he used to beat me and hurt me all the time that is until one day he jus decided to be nice and we got along for that week but after i told him he couldnt use my labtop to watch his shows he freaked and told me he hated me when 5 minutes ago he jus told me he loved me i mean wats up with that to think that i would let my guard down with him when i knew this was going to happen why did i think this time was different?that everything was ok cuz he was my bro and i didnt have to worry about getting hurt anymore?oh thats right i cant let it down anymore all those walls that i set around my heart were down when he told me he hated me so why did i let them down this time?i dont know but its all the same i just cant trust him anymore i cant trust anyone anymore i guess everyones not worth the effort in the end are they