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I am not happy, I am not sad and at the moment I am not depressed. “YEAH!!!”
Tomorrow, I have dancepractice, my little sister is going to participate because she wants to do hiphop also. She’s very good at ballet, gymnastics and acting. She is everything I want to be, confident, happy, has friends isn’t weird, isn’t ME. I am so proud at her for not being like me. I love her so much. But sometimes she’s such a puber. It’s all about her. She is 13 years old (young). My mum cut her a lot of slack, she doesn’t do or did that for me. I am sometimes the typical jealous sister. My mum wants also me to find a job, we are not rich so if I want to dance a lot I need to earn some money. My mum is nice but she can be very mean. I know she wants me to be more like my little sister. But I ain’t. I think I am much older for my age and I have been that for ages. My behavior depends on the person I am with, I reflect the person I think. Not because I don’t know who I am but because I know I am weird and I know people won’t like me for me…because of that. I think I watch a lot of movies and series on the television because I wish I had the life of the persons in it. Who doesn’t want to be Meridith Grey, Elena, Gregory House, Dean and Sam Winchester. The life of those characters is much more interesting than the mine. I hope soon , I’ll create a life like that. MY LIFE.