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LOST: trying to find my way back home

outsider, 06/16/2010

Thank you mum, for destroying everthing I love. Make me feel like I am worth nothing . Thank you for taking the one thing in life that I love: dancing. My mum is mad at me because she had a fight with the neigbhours and I didn’t help her because I think it’s childish. After all these years she still doesn’t understand me. I don’t fight, I always will try to talk about it. It’s just unfair, tomorrow I hear the results of my final exams and she leaves me, she abandons me. I haven’t eaten today and I am not going to. I have a headache but I don’t care. Your mum is the one who should be proud of you because you graduate but no, life never works out for me. I always am patient and always compare my pain with others. I can’t be sad because people in the third world have a lot more to suffer than me. My suffering is a luxury. Thank you mum for taking everything I love. THANK YOU.

3 comments

K J said 06/21/2010:

You can ALWAYS DANCE! Even if only in your mind! I don’nt know your entire situation, but , even the WORST moms can be talked into a “talk”. Family is FOREVER wether we like it or not, And again talk to her, let her know your dreams! Find out hers, and hers for you, find a comprimise! LOVE IS FOREVER! Don’t lose it over a misunderstanding/miss-comunication! KJ

outsider said 06/21/2010:

Sorry, you don’t know the whole story. So you can’t say those things about me. And my mum apologized to me because she knew she was wrong. I didn’t tell you but I was cleaning the dishes so I could only hear half the fight. How she reacted at me was wrong and she knew and apologized for it. It isn’t normal for calling the names she did at me over this. As I said you don’t know the whole story so who are you to judge me…

Nick Cole said 06/20/2010:

You’re joking right? Get over yourself honestly. Also, why wouldn’t you help your mom out in an argument? That’s pretty inconsiderate and selfish of you, not wanting to help out your own mother because you like to be peaceful? And then you call it childish? You know, last time I checked she brought you into this world, and I hear to do that you have to really fight to get the sucker out. So the least you could’ve done is back up your mom. Seriously, go now and apologize for your wrong doing, cause what mother wouldn’t be pissed off after putting her blood sweat and tears into you. Don’t turn this into a rant about pain and suffering

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