I don’t have any money. I’ve been living on tight budget all my life, but now I haven’t been able to pay this month’s rent, and the social office isn’t too willing to help, after rejecting my application three times in a row. I love my homecountry, and on paper it’s a place where people should be having it easy.
I’ve told my doctor of my depression and anxiety of my lack of money. He gave me antidepressants. Goodie, but how’s that going to help me pay my rent?
Lately I’ve been bit out of it. I should renew my drivers liscence but i haven’t had the money to do so. A while ago something just snapped, and I couldn’t really even care where my money goes. It’s not like I’ll live long enough to go to jail for my unpaid bills anyway, so might as well spend on things I’ve wanted for years, but had no chance whatsoever to spend on them.
I bough my first Ball jointed doll, and it makes me little bit happy. Now just waiting for her head to arrive from china. Yeah, not really the best idea to do, to spend money on a doll that costs several hundreds of dollars when lacking money, but it’d go to vodka anyways, so why bother and try to spend? not like i’d have enough money to live anyways.
So irritated about my friends.. they invite me to places that cost like hell, and when I say i can’t afford it they just snort “Well save for it!” Where from the hell will I save when i have absolutely no money!? I had to sell half of my bookshelf with a fraction of it’s worth just to get my cats some food. Thank god my roommate’s a real angel, and is sharing her food with me, but it doesn’t really help my perspection of myself…