I feel like falling deeper in. I hate myself with passion, yet I can’t change who I am. i’m not allowed to harm myself physically anymore, so I drink alcohol to numb my feelings. Afterall, I’m not really even allowed to have any…
I never do anything right… It always feels like if I had more money, things’d be so much easier. I wouldn’t have to loan money from my friends for paying my fricking rent or food. I work and study as much as I just can, but there’s never enough money…
I just always end up hurting those closest to me. I really wish I never had even existed, so all those scars I’ve caused would never had been.
I want to die so badly… Every night I just pray that I’d never wake up. Maybe then my friends would have better lives. Without me ruining everything.
Not even my best friend trusts me.
Why did I even have to be born if i was just going to be a bother to everyone?
1 comment
Hey there. I really feel your pain. You’re here for a reason and God loves you no matter what. Move in witha friend. That way the rent won’t be as much and you can help out with the food situation. What about familiy? They’re always there too and if you did something to hurt them, humble yourself and apologize. Just know that everything comes to pass and God wouldn’t put you in situation He knows you can’t handle. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger right? Have faith..Please..and even though i dont know you, i care.