Life and Family

i hate my life my father treats us prisoners,my mother hates me only from all my sisters and brothers,my boyfriend is always cheating on me but i feel so weak i have no one but him i have no friends and my best friend(cousin) left me because her boyfriend raped me and she thinks that i wanted him she doesnt know that he black mails me i feel so fed up,i have no money so i have to have sex with a 45 year old guy while im still 19, i am stuck in a middle east country and i am always thinking about killing my self but i cant do it even if i have nothing to live for

vivian answered:

hey , i really know how you feel
my family is making my life suck and i have no friends , no one cares about me if i were life or died , i am stuck in middle east too and i alwas think about kill my self end this f**** life but i dont know why i cant do it , i have nothing to worth to life for , i am alwas down , listen if u want to talk to me send me a memo , i will be ur friends and try to help u , but there is one thing i didnt get it why u have to have sex with 45 years old ? if u dont want too , dont do it , no one can make u do anything u dont want , u are 19 u still very young dont kill ur self , i am only 15 and i may kill my self , i am good at giving advice but i cant give it to my self , i may tell u love life and stuff but i wouldnt love it . sooo plz dont think about killing ur self coz think about people who cares about u , i care about u , if u need to talk send me a memo i am alwas online on here