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FMEE answered:

By asking the question you show that you have more then just yourself in your life. People interact with other people even on the net. You may have not found the person you are looking for yet or may feel alone, but you always have some one to interact with if you want

Angelina answered:

Ow! Ow! Gosh, those words that you use to talk about yourself make me wince – and I know exactly what it’s like to do that to yourself. YOU ARE YOUR BIGGEST ALLY. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU DECIDE TO DO :).

Right now, it sounds to me as if you’ve got the perfect chance to start from scratch, start over, make everything new and be whatever you’d like to be.

People aren’t born with jobs, they aren’t born as mothers or wives or track stars – they become those things. People who are successful aren’t just gifted, they are people who decided to embody the ideal of whatever they chose to pursue/be. I believe that the people who are both successful AND happy are the people who strive for the ideal while remembering that life didn’t come with a manual and don’t really know exactly how to get where they’re going (i.e., they are patient with themselves, give themselves plenty of time, space, and freedom to make mistakes).

At the most basic level, time and our very own selves are the only things that any of us have. If you feel alone (and I’ll say again, that is the worst feeling in the world), I’d be happy to talk with you. I don’t believe you when you say you are stupid; you correctly spelled and punctuated everything in all of your entries (I used to teach English). :) I also figure, logically, that you are the executor of that self-destructive loop, so you can stop it when you feel ready. I know that regular exercise, while one of the most difficult habits to form, is one of the best tools with which to fight depression: endorphine release + improved self-concept = :). You can do this. Maybe, if you aren’t quite ready to take on a job, would you want to try volunteering a few days a week with whatever cause interests you? Volunteering has helped me get through some of the toughest times in my life, if for no other reason than that the people who run the organizations are so damn grateful to have help that it seems totally worth getting up and putting on a happy face.

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Angelina, thanks for your concern and helpful words. I’ve actually been suffering from major depression and severe social anxiety for almost 15 years now. I’m slowly coming out of that state of mind but, it’s so difficult and I’m so alone. I doubt my emotional strength to work through this. I’m stupid, out of shape, self destructive and all I’ve ever wanted out of life is a family of my own. But I don’t even have a job, I doubt my ability to hold one, and I would make a terrible mother/ wife.

Angelina answered:

That’s truly all that any of us have, and all that any of us need. If you lost yourself, you’d really be in a fix, wouldn’t you? ;)

Seriously, though, I think that you sound depressed. Depression is awful and loneliness is absolutely the worst feeling, out of all the feelings in our emotional spectrum. I personally hope that you can start to feel better, but I also know that it’s hard. Reaching out, speaking out is the most important first step – and it’s very hard to do. I’m glad that you did :). Now – the questions start. Would you be willing to begin counseling/therapy?

456789798 answered:

Yes it is. And right now you may feel that way, but soon you will find some one to change your thinking. If you are lonely then maybe you should try internet dating. That is how I found my man. Life is great, you just have to try and find some kind of interest in it. That is what I do on a daily basis when I am alone. And if you just need someone to talk to you can tlak to me. Just tell me what you are thinking and if you want to talk to me and I will give you my email address. But I will try my hardest to come and talk to you whenever. Just not at night because I go to the library to get on the computer. :)