question by vivi

P.S
You only get to die once.
Steve

I am now 54 years old.
I had the samethings you are going thru when I was young.
I was very down and out about life.
I though that life was this great thing out in the world.
I found that everything was always happing some were else.I could never find it.
I lived in the 1960’s.
I found out that all the things that people were saying about love and happness were all a bunch of crap.All words.I found as I got older I saw that people changed from love to mean and from happy to selfish.I now look around at the people my age and see the same people that said all those things back then.I found that it was all in our mines at that time.EZer said then done.I once thought of ending it all.Everything changes with time.What you are felling today will go away with time.
I today don’t care what people say or do around me.I don’t run anymore trying to find the world that people tryed to get me to beleave in.I live my own life now.My own dreams,not the worlds dreams.I make my own happeness,I also make my own unhappeness.I try not to think about the bad things of life.It is to ez to fall into it.
It is not my job to take on the bad of this world.It will always be there.I can’t do or change it but it can change me if I let it.
Most people talk behind everyones back.That is the cold heart of man.It talks about it in the Bible.The Bible said it is a sin.People are sinners at heart.Who cares what they are saying behind your back.You know who you are.Only fools and sick people talk behind someones back.It just shows what kind of person they are.You say you want to end it all?That is a sin in Gods eyes.That to is in the Bible.You say that you had everything?.The more one has the more it becomes a chain around your neck.You should never put your trust in rust or people.You should only put your trust in yourself and in Jesus.
I find that I love something new I get at first,but in time I had put it away out of mine,never to be used again.You say you want people to beleave in your dreams?People of today don’t even beleave in there own dreams.Why do you think they would beleave in you dreams?It is a cold world out there.You are just getting old enuff to see it.It has always been a cold hearted world.We as humans don’t want to see it up close.Think about a police man.He see the dirt of life everyday.From the time he gets up to the time he go’s to sleep he lives in a world of dirty evil.It is in his mine 24/7.He can’t get away from it.Why?He is looking for it.It is what he has trained his mine to see.He sees evil in everyone and everything,even on his days off.
If you look for the bad things of life,that is what you will see.If you look for the good things of life,you will see the good.Yes,you will also see the evil bad people and things of life also but you just over look them,because you know thay will always be out there.Never put your trust in people or things because they will always bring you down to that level.I myself only put my trust in myself and in God,jesus.You should not put so much trust in your family.Why do I say that?
I put my whole life of trust into my family.In the end they burned me big time.My two brothers and two sisters each riped me off for $13,770 dollars.At this time,I will never speek to any of them again.My Mother and Father both died and left us all money.My brothers and sister took my money before I could pick it up.Left me out in the cold.Beleave me,the more you think you can trust your family the more you are just fooling yourself.I could never trust them again.That is why I will never talk to any of them again.(never)So when I hear you say that your own family is talking behind your back dose not suprise me.Trust no one,trust yourself.
Well,I hope I have help you some.
The only dream you should have at this time is to trust and beleave in yourself.
Steven Elliot
stvn_elliot@yahoo.com

I am sorry that you feel this way but please remember that someone loves you. You may not see it now because you are feeling down but you will if you try to rise above the clouds. Please try not to focus on the things that are making you sad, look around and find the things that lift your spirit even the simple things. Go to your pastor or church leader or Rabbi and talk to someone who is impartial. Good Luck, I am rooting for you.

How old are you, don’t do anything to hurt yoursell. Go to a teacher, a doctor or a letter of your faith. Do not wait get help now.

Give your life more time and you will find that time heals everything.
Life is ups and downs.You can’t live all the good ups and never live the downs.
That is not a real life in the end.When your down,think about the good times you have lived and are going to live in times to come.When your down,live in the past and the future to come.
I use small am-fm radio all day long.When it is on,I hear it and not my own mine.
I put it on a am talk show.It works for me.I have used it for many years now.Try it,you will find it will work for you.
Steven Elliot

I think you’ll find that many people all over the world would believe in you if they knew your dreams and even if you feel the way your feeling you don’t fully know what others think about your dreams. Please don’t commit suicide i urge you. I too have thought about it and have tried to act on it, but when it comes down to it i was lying to myself about the things that you’re now expressing. Remember there is always someone, even if you don’t know them, that will care and grieve your death if you die. Try to tell your parents or someone at least.

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