lostWitch asked 02/06/2010:
i have a strong reaction to stress and i’ve had a truly ridiculous month but i don’t have time for counselling and before most of the insanity that has recently happened i was struggling to cope with my uni work-load; if i miss anymore school i’m going to have to take this year again and i can’t afford the fees. i feel sick all the time and my heart rate shoots up and my stomach decides that it hates me. how do i stop being so bloody broken?!
4 answers
lostWitch answered:
it’s what i’m trying to do William Paul – for example, today i made a hoard of fimo creatures and i’m knitting socks for one of my friends (i have to say in hideous colours, but hey, she picked ‘em) and tomorrow is my allotted allotment day when i hope to dig over my plot ready for my onions and garlic to go in… i’ve even started one of my assignments (i know, putting away the work, but i enjoy arguing theory) :)
as soon as i can get the whole panic-feel ill-have to get home to bed and sleep for days cycle done with i’ll be ok, i know i will… but until then you guys responding is really helping me not feel so damn lost – thank you! :)
Grey Cloud answered:
I feel for you my friend. Go get a check up from an MD. make sure your health is good. If you are ok, Put everything down for a day and do something you really enjoy. De-stress a bit and relax, clear your mind a bit.
lostWitch answered:
my friends and family are all really supportive, but everyone’s got so much on at the moment i don’t feel that i can put upon them. my mum, for example, is a full time carer for my grandad (who’s 91, wonderful and worries about me); my boyfriend went through witnessing the attack and the faked suicide attempt too, but he doesn’t want to talk about it – his way of dealing i guess (he’s also lovely) – and we’re both aware that he can’t take time out of his work to look after me. i can’t actually afford the train fare home, even if mum could help and nor can anyone else in my family.
my friends have been wonderful, but i hate to show weakness in front of them.
having read the post through i feel like i’m whining…
jenna, you have no idea how much it has helped me that you answered – thank you, so much xx